It appears The Husband and I are bringing up the sun. Mozart’s Nativity works, or works of his usually played at Christmas, is the background. We haven’t done this for a while – sit up all night and just be together, doing our own things side by side. We’ve talked, laughed. Chatted. Though I am tired and the pain is hitting the annoying stage, I wouldn’t have done anything differently.
Tonight I finally felt a little bit safe. It hadn’t hit on me how agitated I really was, am. But, I realized I felt safe and that gave me the energy and will to actually make some creative plans for tomorrow. It was enjoyable to open my OneNote and make a page of To-Do things. There aren’t overwhelming things like ‘write a Pulitzer novel’ or anything. It is simple little things like, ‘play with the dogs’, etc. For the first time in a long time, my Soul took a deep breath and relaxed just a little.
My family is still going through super bad troubles. A new thing has turned up that has almost devastated this family! I can’t go into details, but it has shaken my foundation some. That uneasiness is NEVER easy to bear, especially on top of all the recent bad with losing my sister and nephew just three months apart.
Amid all the whirling chaos surrounding me, my Soul was finally able to take a breath. I felt safe. Good. I feel safe. All I did was pick up a pencil and do a little journaling. Then I was designing a Christmas card I want to send to my niece in Florida. I hadn’t drawn anything in ages. I am going to have to be creative or, I feel, I won’t survive catastrophe after catastrophe. with my wits intact. Lol.
\Now, I am going to greet the sun with some Psalms with Mozart’s accompaniment. Hope today is a good one for you all.